That is Love

Those moments when you unknowingly gave your heart to the one you love,

The feeling of butterflies in the very pit of your stomach when they ease your mind.

The smile which graces upon the world reaching your eyes when they are near,

The special glow you cast for all to see, which brightens with their gentle touch.

The warmth and protection you snuggle closer into their arms,

The places you lay memories; as you share every moment together.

The all out joy you give one another to make sure you are pleased evenly,

The nights you laugh at random things, just to see a smile.

The days you could watch TV, not speaking a word; yet the comfort of the other is near,

The holidays you brand with a toast of wine, over candle light.

The three words you utter occasionally, making time stands still,

To never feel alone because one heart beats for the other.

The time when tears only fall when forever is placed on a finger,

The dreams you share; to bid a future that harness true love.

Memories Of You

Voices of the wind and beads of light I let flow to you
I won't forget your gentle smile sadness hidden in your eyes
Even if wishing is painful, you gave me courage to stand up
So I'll go; we'll meet again when you awake in your dream

I hold faraway memories to my heart and sing

You protected this empty, wavering world with your own hands
So now just fold your wings and sleep peacefully
Enveloped in eternal tranquility, love through all eternity
Sleep within these hands, gently watching over you
I remember you, laughing, crying, getting angry
I'll never forget, ever, until my life is exhausted

From the intersection I heard a voice like yours
I turned and looked towards the sky, holding back my tears
Tomorrow, some day
I believe I'll see you again, and wander alone
On rainy nights, I keep waiting for a sunny morning

I won't forget the nights we ran through

In dazzling, shining moments we were all together
I spent them without realizing how precious they were
Now, to remember them fondly I will embrace the feeling
You were right there with me
Always always always you were smiling there beside me
Even if I lose you I'll get you back I will never leave you

You protected this empty, wavering world with your own hands
So now just fold your wings and sleep peacefully
Enveloped in eternal tranquility, love through all eternity
Sleep within these hands, gently watching over you
I remember you, laughing, crying, getting angry
I'll never forget, ever, until my life is exhausted

In dazzling, shining moments we were all together
I spent them without realizing how precious they were
Now, to remember them fondly I will embrace the feeling
You were right there with me
Always always always you were smiling there beside me
Even if I lose you, I'll get you back, I will never leave you

Burn My Dread, Last Battle.

I will burn my dread.
Burn my dread.

There's no man's land.
No man's ever survived.
Invisible hands are,
Behind you just now.
If you ever win that,
Race against rage then.
You'll be the king coz,
It's no man's land.

The mask in heavy rain.
Ultimately slain,
Make shadows slave.
What they done is in vein,
Carrying AK-47.
Twenty four-seven but,
You've got eleven.
Persecuted by heaven,

Comes from the direction,
No indication.
You've got to,
To let it move first.
Let it out.
Let it down.
Let it inside.
Let loose.
Letting damn depressed.
Let's get it up.

Then which gotta do is to,
Drop the hammer down.
Drop rhyme drop hammer.
Digging like a labor.
You've got blood all over.
Ash all over.
Spit it out son.
Game's over.

Burn my dread.
Tear up your fear.
The end is coming near.
Spit it out like a spear.
I'll burn your dread.

No soul.
Robust.All dust.
We bust justice.
To the man with no life.

When The Moon's Reaching Out For The Stars

I've never felt like so miserable.
I've never felt like thinking this will last forever.
Baby stay with me you gotta tell me your love came all over me.

I never felt like so different now.
It doesn't seem like we've been far apart turn me so jealous.
My life will turn out it doesn't seem like it could be last for my life.

When stars are smiling at moon wonder how they look in your eyes.
Just dialing your number failing to press the last two pray in the heart.
When the moon's reaching starts if you hold me tight.
Feeling heart best so close will this last long?

My life will turn out to move on like that.
Just give me something that proves you're not fooling.
Just give me you gotta tell me your love came all over me.

My life will turn out to be so cruel.
Just give me something that proves you're not fooling.
If this is so real.
So just tell me your love came all over me.

When stars are smiling at moon wonder how they look in your eyes.
If I could ever tell you that wouldn't I feel so weak parry in the heart.
When the moon is reaching starts you won't leave again.
If I could ever tell you that you wouldn't leave me.

When stars are smiling at moon wonder how they look in your eyes.
Now I need that smile so close can't help thinking of you up in the sky.
Seeing the moon is reaching starts if you hold me tight.
Feeling heart best so close will this last long?

Burn My Dread

Dreamless dorm, ticking clock.
I walk away from the soundless room.
Windless night, moonlight melts.
My ghostly shadow to the lukewarm gloom.
Nightly dance of bleeding swords,
Reminds me that I still live.

I will burn my dread.
I once ran away from the god of fear,
And he chained me to despair.

Burn my dread.
I'll break the chain,
And run till I see the sunlight again.

I'll lift my face and run to the sunlight.

Voiceless town, tapping feet.
I clench my fist in pockets tight,
Far in mist a tower awaits.
Like a merciless tomb, devouring moonlight.

Clockwork maze, end unknown.
In frozen time a staircase stands,
Shadows crawl on bloodstained floor.
I rush straight ahead with a sword in hands.

Cold touch of my trembling gun,
I close my eyes to hear you breath.

I will burn my dread.
This time I'll grapple down that God of Fear.
And throw him into Hell's Fire.
I'll shrug the pain and run till I see the sunlight again.
Oh, I will run burning all regret and dread.
And I will face the sun with pride of the living.

Only in my dreams

Only in my dreams, we could stay.
Only in your dreams, you would go away.

Only in my dreams, my back would sprout wings, and we could fly afar.
Only in your dreams, my wings would be covered with tar.

Only in my dreams, the world would be a happy place.
Only in your dreams, every person has a name without a face.

Only in my dreams, I’d tell you how I feel.
Only in your dreams, you’d tell me those feelings aren’t real.

Only in my dreams, I would set my heart free.
Only in your dreams, my heart would defy me.

Only in my dreams, you fend for me.
Only in your dreams, it’s me you can’t see.

Only in my dreams, we could say a nice good-bye.
And only in your dreams, you would make me cry.

I will miss you

I thought before I first saw you,
I knew what love was.
That, I later found, to be false.
You showed me the meaning of True love.

I loved you with all my heart,
I gave you everything I had to give.
I thought our loved would last a lifetime,
I was the only one, though,

You already knew it wouldn't be forever.
You tried to tell me.
I always chose not to listen.
I only heard what my heart was telling me.

If I could go back in time and change things,
I wouldn't. I always want the memories
of you and I together, the way we were -
Happy for the most part.

I love you still,
And I always will.
But someday my life will starts over,

Starts over without you.

It will be a tough journey for me,
But I know I will make it.

Life does go on.

Thinking of you

Words of wisdom
come to my ears,
Telling me what I know in my heart,
But never wanted to hear.

With the truth finally said
and out in the open for me to plainly see,
I wonder why I can love so deeply
but never had that love returned back to me.

I confessed the feelings
that I held inside for so long,
But with her soft-hearted rejection,
I realize I have to be strong.

With tears that want to flow
from my eyes,
I feel that my heart,
along with my composure, slowly dies.

While this dramatic side is showing through
with my ability to question and reason,
I think I may have found
something in me that I can believe in.

Love hurts...
That's what they all say,
But I will love again
when all this pain and sorrow goes away.

So I sit and think of all the things
this situation has cost,
And I realize that nothing
very important has been lost.

Instead, a learning experience
has come from all this.
I've learned that hardly anything
is more important than my happiness.

Shattered Pieces

Inside my sleeve, I pull out my heart,
handing it to you, "careful it's fragile,
and easily falls apart."

Extending your arms, you take the heart in
your tender warm hands.
It falls into a million shattered pieces - on
the floor it lands.

You begin to bend down to pick it up, sorrow and
sadness in your eyes.

Apologies are not enough.

Looking at you with tears in my eyes,
I ask you not to pick up the pieces of a heart
that has fallen apart.

I am the one who needs to pick up the pieces of
my shattered heart - one by one, piece by piece.

I need to put it together again, some how. some way.

Each piece of my heart has a memory so true.
Each piece of my heart has part of you.

You are the one who is leaving to start a new lease on life.
I'll just be here on my knees picking up the pieces of a
heart that feels like it's being pierced with a knife.

All my tears won't keep you near
All my tears won't mend what's not here.

Again I look at you with a whisper in my voice,
The only way my heart will mend and finally be complete,
is if you and I can come together without being discreet.
You see, what we have here and today, helps me face the
world, with a love for you that gives a glow -
but now, you made a choice.

My heart is on this floor, shattered and broke.
With each piece I pick up -
I need to learn to let go.

Masks

I was once sad and lonely,
Having nobody to comfort me,
So I wore a mask that always smiled;
To hide my feelings behind a lie.

Before long, I had many friends;
With my mask, I was one of them.
But deep inside, I still felt empty,
Like I was missing a part of me.

Nobody could hear my cries at night
For I designed my mask to hide the lies.
Nobody could see the pain I was feeling
For I designed my mask to be laughing.

Behind all the smiles were the tears
And behind all the comfort were the fears.
Everything you think you see,
Wasn't everything there was to me.

Day by day,
I was slowly dying.
I couldn't go on,
There was something missing..

Until now I'm still searching
For the thing that'll stop my crying.
For someone who'll erase my fears,
For the person who'll wipe my tears.

But till then I'll keep on smiling.
Hiding behind this mask I'm wearing.
Hoping one day I can smile,
Till then, I'll be here.. waiting.

Lost Soul

You pass me on the street and our eyes briefly meet.
You hold the door open for me as I enter behind you.
I say thanks, but you have no idea that my mind is blank.

In the elevator you crack a joke, I flash a smile,
you have no idea that my heart is in denial.

You ask me how my day was and I say fine.
You have no idea that my brain and I are arguing to if I should cross the line.

My happiness is gone as I walk in this world.
The thoughts in my head have me wishing I was laying in a cold dark hole.

Once you lose your soul there is no turning back.
Everything you once dreamed of no longer has an impact.

You don't want to love nor do you want to have fun.
Your days are so long the problems in your mind make you question if you should carry on.

You smile so that's what people see on your face,
they think that you are happy but deep down inside you feel like a worthless disgrace.

Each day the performance you put on for people is Emmy award winning,
But you question yourself and wonder if you act is just a way for you to hold off your own internal sinnings.

When you wake up from a night's sleep you wonder to yourself if today is the day your heart will be back to it's old self or will it still be skipping every other beat.
You wonder if things that once made you happy to be alive will make a comeback.

You wonder if the little things in life that made you who you are will have you once again dreaming to the stars.
You wonder if you will feel less empty hearted.

You wonder to yourself who holds the match to start that fire.
You're tired of running and losing your breath.

You want to hold tight to something that will help you once again enjoy the journey into lives amazing treks.

You want to feel that every day can be better than the last.
You want to turn your lost soul feeling into a thing of your past.

A Cold World

I can't fill the void,
The pain of this despair.
I'm counting down the seconds,
And it just isn't fair.

Why'd it have to happen?
I just can't understand.
I'll never hear your voice,
Never hold your hand.

And they say that it's ok,
But what do they know?
This granite stone is cold,
And I'm about to go.

They think that it's easy,
That you were nothing to me.
But baby, you meant the world,
Something you'll never get to see.

It makes me want to scream,
I don't know what to say.
And though you're not there,
These silent words, I pray.

I'm lost in the anger,
Reaching out for you.
But you were taken away,
And I can't believe it's true.

And it's not enough to breathe,
And it's not enough to cry.
Your loss cuts too deep,
For me to ask the question why.

And it's barely setting in,
It's sucking the life out of me.
No, it won't enter my soul,
So I can't yet set it free.

Thoughts Of A Broken Hearted

I want to cry
I want to scream
I want to tell you mostly
I hate that I'm so afraid of everything
I hate that you’re the one thing I want the most but can't have
I hate that you let me go before I got even got to say goodbye
I wish that you would come back to me
I wish I were strong enough to say no to you
I wish I could believe my own lies I use to cover up the pain you left
I need to move on says my head
I need to hold on says my heart
I need to decide says my mind
I envy the way this hasn’t hurt you at all
I envy her
I envy the fact you don’t understand what this feels like at all
I want to hurt you
I want to be with you
I want this nightmare to be over
I wish I could make things they were before you
I wish I could change time
I wish I could change you
I wish I could have hurt you before you hurt me
I wish I would have given you the letter when I wanted
I need you out of my thoughts
I need you out of my heart
I need to start doing things for me
I hate that you used me
I hate that I gave you something I can never have back
I hate that I wasted it with you
I'm tired of hoping aimlessly for you
I'm tired of wanting something I can't have
I'm tired of hurting me for things that aren’t my fault
I'm sorry I was good enough
I'm sorry I defended you when everyone else was right
I'm sorry I couldn’t make you happy
Funny though how you never once said sorry for hurting me,
for breaking me,
for not loving me.

Mixed Emotions

Inside I'm crying
Outside I'm smiling
No one notices
But its hard for me to control this
When you see me walk by
It doesn't look like it but I want to die
Thoughts racing through my head
Then comes the tears that I shed
How can I change
All the tears and rage
You say you understand
And all I need is a helping hand
That may be true
But first take a walk in my shoes
Sadness, angers, and unbearable pain
You'll be taking a walk full of nothing but shame
As time moves slower
My self-esteem gets lower
Am I nothing to this world
Or am I just a worthless teenage boy?

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Never Waits

He cannot take it any longer; he has decided to leave,
There is nothing she can do, to make him believe.
He has so many doubts, when he say he will be there,
He does not know why, but he does not want her to care.

There is really no need, for him to explain,
He just wants to end, all of his pain.
He already has a plan, he know just what to do,
To end his life, he will have to hide it from all of you.

No one knows, how he really feels,
He does not want her to think, that this is all real.
He hates himself, but he does not want her to know,
He cannot explain why, he just wants to go.

He does not know why, but he has felt like this for so long,
Maybe that is why, he feels like he does not belong.
Maybe he feels, like he is the only one to blame,
Because it is his life, it is his own game.

No matter what his friends say, he still does not believe,
He cannot love himself, so why shouldnt he leave?
He will try to push them away; he will try his best to succeed,
His friend; the knife, is all he will need.

He has tried so many times, yet he always seems to fail,
He has tried his very best, but his plans seem to derail.
He can not take it any longer; he wants it to end,
His funeral is something; he does not want them to attend.

He knows it may sound mean, but what is the point?
Why celebrate his life, when all he did was disappoint,
He will never tell her, it was himself he hated,
He does not know why but he's glad he never waited.