Never Waits

He cannot take it any longer; he has decided to leave,
There is nothing she can do, to make him believe.
He has so many doubts, when he say he will be there,
He does not know why, but he does not want her to care.

There is really no need, for him to explain,
He just wants to end, all of his pain.
He already has a plan, he know just what to do,
To end his life, he will have to hide it from all of you.

No one knows, how he really feels,
He does not want her to think, that this is all real.
He hates himself, but he does not want her to know,
He cannot explain why, he just wants to go.

He does not know why, but he has felt like this for so long,
Maybe that is why, he feels like he does not belong.
Maybe he feels, like he is the only one to blame,
Because it is his life, it is his own game.

No matter what his friends say, he still does not believe,
He cannot love himself, so why shouldnt he leave?
He will try to push them away; he will try his best to succeed,
His friend; the knife, is all he will need.

He has tried so many times, yet he always seems to fail,
He has tried his very best, but his plans seem to derail.
He can not take it any longer; he wants it to end,
His funeral is something; he does not want them to attend.

He knows it may sound mean, but what is the point?
Why celebrate his life, when all he did was disappoint,
He will never tell her, it was himself he hated,
He does not know why but he's glad he never waited.