Only in my dreams

Only in my dreams, we could stay.
Only in your dreams, you would go away.

Only in my dreams, my back would sprout wings, and we could fly afar.
Only in your dreams, my wings would be covered with tar.

Only in my dreams, the world would be a happy place.
Only in your dreams, every person has a name without a face.

Only in my dreams, I’d tell you how I feel.
Only in your dreams, you’d tell me those feelings aren’t real.

Only in my dreams, I would set my heart free.
Only in your dreams, my heart would defy me.

Only in my dreams, you fend for me.
Only in your dreams, it’s me you can’t see.

Only in my dreams, we could say a nice good-bye.
And only in your dreams, you would make me cry.

I will miss you

I thought before I first saw you,
I knew what love was.
That, I later found, to be false.
You showed me the meaning of True love.

I loved you with all my heart,
I gave you everything I had to give.
I thought our loved would last a lifetime,
I was the only one, though,

You already knew it wouldn't be forever.
You tried to tell me.
I always chose not to listen.
I only heard what my heart was telling me.

If I could go back in time and change things,
I wouldn't. I always want the memories
of you and I together, the way we were -
Happy for the most part.

I love you still,
And I always will.
But someday my life will starts over,

Starts over without you.

It will be a tough journey for me,
But I know I will make it.

Life does go on.

Thinking of you

Words of wisdom
come to my ears,
Telling me what I know in my heart,
But never wanted to hear.

With the truth finally said
and out in the open for me to plainly see,
I wonder why I can love so deeply
but never had that love returned back to me.

I confessed the feelings
that I held inside for so long,
But with her soft-hearted rejection,
I realize I have to be strong.

With tears that want to flow
from my eyes,
I feel that my heart,
along with my composure, slowly dies.

While this dramatic side is showing through
with my ability to question and reason,
I think I may have found
something in me that I can believe in.

Love hurts...
That's what they all say,
But I will love again
when all this pain and sorrow goes away.

So I sit and think of all the things
this situation has cost,
And I realize that nothing
very important has been lost.

Instead, a learning experience
has come from all this.
I've learned that hardly anything
is more important than my happiness.

Shattered Pieces

Inside my sleeve, I pull out my heart,
handing it to you, "careful it's fragile,
and easily falls apart."

Extending your arms, you take the heart in
your tender warm hands.
It falls into a million shattered pieces - on
the floor it lands.

You begin to bend down to pick it up, sorrow and
sadness in your eyes.

Apologies are not enough.

Looking at you with tears in my eyes,
I ask you not to pick up the pieces of a heart
that has fallen apart.

I am the one who needs to pick up the pieces of
my shattered heart - one by one, piece by piece.

I need to put it together again, some how. some way.

Each piece of my heart has a memory so true.
Each piece of my heart has part of you.

You are the one who is leaving to start a new lease on life.
I'll just be here on my knees picking up the pieces of a
heart that feels like it's being pierced with a knife.

All my tears won't keep you near
All my tears won't mend what's not here.

Again I look at you with a whisper in my voice,
The only way my heart will mend and finally be complete,
is if you and I can come together without being discreet.
You see, what we have here and today, helps me face the
world, with a love for you that gives a glow -
but now, you made a choice.

My heart is on this floor, shattered and broke.
With each piece I pick up -
I need to learn to let go.

Masks

I was once sad and lonely,
Having nobody to comfort me,
So I wore a mask that always smiled;
To hide my feelings behind a lie.

Before long, I had many friends;
With my mask, I was one of them.
But deep inside, I still felt empty,
Like I was missing a part of me.

Nobody could hear my cries at night
For I designed my mask to hide the lies.
Nobody could see the pain I was feeling
For I designed my mask to be laughing.

Behind all the smiles were the tears
And behind all the comfort were the fears.
Everything you think you see,
Wasn't everything there was to me.

Day by day,
I was slowly dying.
I couldn't go on,
There was something missing..

Until now I'm still searching
For the thing that'll stop my crying.
For someone who'll erase my fears,
For the person who'll wipe my tears.

But till then I'll keep on smiling.
Hiding behind this mask I'm wearing.
Hoping one day I can smile,
Till then, I'll be here.. waiting.

Lost Soul

You pass me on the street and our eyes briefly meet.
You hold the door open for me as I enter behind you.
I say thanks, but you have no idea that my mind is blank.

In the elevator you crack a joke, I flash a smile,
you have no idea that my heart is in denial.

You ask me how my day was and I say fine.
You have no idea that my brain and I are arguing to if I should cross the line.

My happiness is gone as I walk in this world.
The thoughts in my head have me wishing I was laying in a cold dark hole.

Once you lose your soul there is no turning back.
Everything you once dreamed of no longer has an impact.

You don't want to love nor do you want to have fun.
Your days are so long the problems in your mind make you question if you should carry on.

You smile so that's what people see on your face,
they think that you are happy but deep down inside you feel like a worthless disgrace.

Each day the performance you put on for people is Emmy award winning,
But you question yourself and wonder if you act is just a way for you to hold off your own internal sinnings.

When you wake up from a night's sleep you wonder to yourself if today is the day your heart will be back to it's old self or will it still be skipping every other beat.
You wonder if things that once made you happy to be alive will make a comeback.

You wonder if the little things in life that made you who you are will have you once again dreaming to the stars.
You wonder if you will feel less empty hearted.

You wonder to yourself who holds the match to start that fire.
You're tired of running and losing your breath.

You want to hold tight to something that will help you once again enjoy the journey into lives amazing treks.

You want to feel that every day can be better than the last.
You want to turn your lost soul feeling into a thing of your past.

A Cold World

I can't fill the void,
The pain of this despair.
I'm counting down the seconds,
And it just isn't fair.

Why'd it have to happen?
I just can't understand.
I'll never hear your voice,
Never hold your hand.

And they say that it's ok,
But what do they know?
This granite stone is cold,
And I'm about to go.

They think that it's easy,
That you were nothing to me.
But baby, you meant the world,
Something you'll never get to see.

It makes me want to scream,
I don't know what to say.
And though you're not there,
These silent words, I pray.

I'm lost in the anger,
Reaching out for you.
But you were taken away,
And I can't believe it's true.

And it's not enough to breathe,
And it's not enough to cry.
Your loss cuts too deep,
For me to ask the question why.

And it's barely setting in,
It's sucking the life out of me.
No, it won't enter my soul,
So I can't yet set it free.